Okay, voice memos, I have a bunch of ideas to try and drop my memory. One of them is like the analogy is between the basic meditation insight that aversion and attraction are like just mental sensations. They don’t like stand above other sensations like an imperative.
Another thing is a question of why exercise, especially like mindful play engagement, engaging exercise like climbing is when it gives you energy, right? Contender is that it relieves like stress, tension, and striving, like physical stress literally, like all the stretching and stuff, and then obviously mental stress as well.
And then what was the book that I watched on Arrowhead that was like, oh, it’s such a great book. What the fuck was it? It was, oh, it’s about how the, a lot of the like feeling of youth that people want to like recapture when they’re old is about, that like feeling of possibility, like you can like do anything and that’s a lot of the pleasure of thinking or like what’s most pleasurable in thinking is like to me is like having an idea and feeling that it’s like generative more so than like, you know, chasing down something or doing something really long, logical reduction or something that’s like less enjoyable.
Whoops, totally forgot the actual like first point there. The point was like the connection between the like non-imperative or flat mental ontology thing from like meditation and like a quiet-ian question mark flat ontology from like analytic metaphysics. That’s the actual connection.
I just like washed a piece of pasta in the middle of it and forgot my train of thought completely. Okay, we are absolutely cooking with this one, brother.
So there’s the idea about how the pleasure of youth is like having the like, the opportunity, the optionality, and being like aware of that and being like, oh, how splendid, and one of the effects of that is you can just like sort of try to like hang on to that for a long time, and you just kind of like try to like stay Peter Pan, I think, really like try and try and Peter Pan max, but I mean, you know, sort of downsides of that are obvious. Maybe it’s like a paradox of like, you’re trying to like hang on to optionality and that cuts off functionality or blah, blah, blah, whatever. I’m also, I think it’s just, it stops you from like committing and thereby achieving, achieving much of the things.
But anyway, you’ll be writing this in an essay and you can say, well, the same, there’s like a common psychological cause of why, why I haven’t achieved that much just in general in all my shoots. And why my like obsidian or whatever has so many more notes. Then I have like blog posts or whatever it is.
It’s like, I like the, look at this, look at this connection, which is a generative connection, which means it has all these options of directions. I can take it. Oh, isn’t that tantalizing? It’s like a view of a, of a fucking wooded and mist shrouded, gently sloping veil or some shit.
But point is that the essay can be kind of matter of like, Oh, you know, look, this, this thing was like so hard to, to, to write or something. I mean, you could go over the top and literally not, not finish it. But it’s a bit silly.
Kind of reminds me of the Kate’s essay thing with the focus on metal stuff. I don’t know if there’s a tighter connection there or not, but it’s whatever, if, if, but yeah, anyway, it’s like, this is like an actual, maybe like psychological insight. And then it’s like, as a, as a nice like form, content fit to, to be an essay, you know, I shouldn’t just focus on making an essay.
It’s like, actually it’s like, Oh, that’s a true thing about me. That’s cool. But, but, but, but, but yeah, I don’t know.
Hopefully that’s generative. The other point of connection was that like the, like, thinking of connections slash being young is like a manic episode thing of like, Oh, I can do anything. It’s not just like, I can do this thing as I can do anything.
There’s a lot of like energy of a manic, manic episode, which is nice. Kind of like everybody wants to shit. Nobody wants to wipe, but ideate and write with these voice notes.
I think that was it.